Maybe this is call soon to be mummy's depression

Everything is alright! but I just cant stop worrying about the future.
When it comes to a point when everyday all you hear are negative comments, it really sucks.
At first you can come comforting and convincing yourself that you are strong enough to prove them wrong.

I used to be real positve! sadly, not anymore.
I hate mentioning / reminding myself all the criticism I've received.
I would rather swallow them down, hoping one day they would all vanish!
You can never imagine how hasty comments can be, specially coming from faces you know.
I start to worry, maybe.. they are right.

Not only do I fear what they say would come true, I get less and less confident about myself.
Everything about myself. Be it my appearance, my capabilities and abilities.
Maybe I've been caged for long and too much restrictions have been applied to young mummy, I start to doubt myself.

I admitted, I used to be such a vain person that sometimes I even wear my makeup to sleep.
And today, I hardly touch my makeupkit.
Pregnancy at fault and I realised since I could, I would spend the cosmetics value on baby chan.

My dad used to paid me well for school allowance!
And my part time job allowed me to earn up to thousand even when I am still schooling.
I seriously regretted not saving the money, not a single cent left from entertainments and food.
And today I am stucked at home, earning through my mini scale online shop.
Barely 200hundred a month, how pathetic.
Yea, no more allowance from daddy and I am struggling to save enough with what I earn for my poly fee next year if that could lessen my hubby's burden.

Tender loving care.
My love seems to have his own way of thinking and doing.
Stop being jealous, I wish I have some friends who could accompany me through the night too when I am down.



Sometimes I wish, I am just a friend.

♥our lips must always be sealed
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