Monday, July 23, 2012

Go ahead, go ahead and mock at my state.

2 years ago I was boosting how blissful I would be, yet 2 years after, I am nothing more than a torn soul.
I came to understand, my overwhelming love killed myself.
I was certain when I proclaimed to be someone noble, especially to my little sweet heart Mical.
It hit me right in the face, when I realized it wasn't that case.
However determined I am it works in a pair, I can't do it myself.

I thought I was someone who love endlessly, give in dearly and I wouldn't mind even doing anything for this family.

For the last two years, I faced depression, anorexia, insults and criticisms from both his friends and husband.
Oh, you can save your breathe talking out to Melvin.
His ego has went so high up and he has changed too much from the one I knew.
And Melvin friends, if you are reading this.
Seriously, I don't need a husband who needed indulgence himself forsaking himself as a father of one.
Take it, please spare me no more.

I wouldn't describe my life as total misery, I did enjoy myself up till last year.
It's great to know that I am still a human, I do have my limited and I do gave up on things.
I wasn't that mighty to pull the family together when Melvin is never not there for us.
Since Mical was born, he did bring me and Mical down for a walk once, however that was more than half a year ago, 
I could only come up with an answer, I am asking too much of him.
I am so sorry, I am tired of being alone all the time, lying to myself that this family will work up some days.
放开了拳头，反而更自由。


sasa;
Every woman deserves to be loved.
After all these commitments, I constantly ask myself, "why not me?"